The day finally came....

It finally came....she finally decided to end it again....it all happen yesterday nite...WTF why must it happen...tis might b a retribution to me 4 playing wif e heart off my past ex.....I just hate e feeling off losing u...can i survive??I damp feelin down.....y must she let me go wen she love me...does it make sense???she love me yet she let me go...

(My Inner Voice)
Khai wake up u r strong...u can continue ur live journey...dont turn bck khai....Khai it hard at first but u naturally will b ok k....U should let her go....dont hold her bck wen she doesnt wan stay any longer.....


Wen u say u love me..n I replied does it matter....I knw it hurt u...but deep down inside it does matter...ido still love u. i just wan to make u hate me so dat u will 4 get me easier....Wen i say u hurt me more tis way...It really damp hurting me but I say dat not to ask any symphaty frm u to not let me go but trying to make u wake up n see if u making e right choice....I have no choice i tink i will give u a cold shoulder for tyme being....it better 4 u n me to try let each other go.....


Shit i really miss n still loving u....I wan 2 hear ur voice but i knw i must b strong n move on.......

yes ah passed my basic theory... :) but so happy 4 wat?still long way to go seh to get my lisence...hehe...k lah ntg to update le....bye




Enjoy myself wif u today sayang....LOVE YOU!!! MUACKS!! :P

wah wat a bad day today...wen 4 soccer training eventhough i wasnt in e mood to play soccer...n guess wat aft 6month of not getting injured wen playing soccer i got injured while tackling smone..WTF seh...now my right leg damp pain lah but lucky enough it does not dilocate....i was limping all e way home lor....hopefully get better soon...wah tis right leg of mine always get injured seh....k lah i wan to go rest later at 6 plus wan to go out...will blog again soon.....



I MISS YOU!!!! :(

yesterday nite it happen again...she suddenly tok abt ending everting again....i knw she is just confuse as it really damp complicated....she love me yet she hav to leave me...i then took e courage to ask her if should walk out frm her life if she really wan it...even though deep down my heart i dont wan to loose her....i love her too much dat i just cant bare to loose her....she then say y dont i just 4get her n move on as she does not wan 2 hurt me more....i then ask her tis qn 4 e last tyme"Is dat wat u really wan?".....n she ans "Yes"....but i knw frm e tone of her voice dat was not she really wan but as i say she has no choice.....i den say gdbye n hang e phone....4 e whole nite i cant slp as i was stoning into space n tinking abt her...my heart hurt dat i drop my tears 4 her again...i also know dat she will not b slping e whole nite n will b crying e whole nite...7.16 am....a msg came in... she wish me farewell b4 she wen to KL 4 her hols....n true enough she cried e nite until even e tyme she text me....she told me she love me to much dat she cant bare to leave me....i then told her tis "i wont leave u if u nvr told me to do so..... as i love u so much...."i then tell her to enjoy her hols n i will wait 4 her call wen she bck....hais i need some advice here frm e ppl hu knw my current situation....wat should i do??I love her so much.....Oh god pls give me some guidance...

"Oh tuhan ,berilah aku kekuatan dan petunjuk untk menempuh hidup ini...Aku benar-benar cintakan dia yg bernama ....."

Syg i love u so much k..Pls dont ask me to leave u.....

wah 2day is my laziest day..... been slping whole day hahaha...n i not e kind of person hu slp whole day ...can buy 4-D ler...lol....wah i hav not been myself lately seh i also donno y.....tink too much already....donno y today flashbck abt my past...smtimes being a baby is e best as u dont hav to tink anyting...wen u wan anyting u just hav to cry n everyting is given to u.....but aft 18 yrs of living in tis world i hav learn alot of tings in lives....i hav face alot of down fall in lives until it landed me in lock up which nearly made me enter e boys home or even e prison but i was lucky enough dat my case is drop....n due to my foolishness i nearly get expel frm my school..u guys emagine 5 yrs in skul more then 10 case hahaha...but i am lucky to hav a bunch of good teachers to convince e principle not to expel us...especially my DM heheh...he so gd seh hahaha....k must stay out of trouble ler...hahaha....coz if i get into trouble smone (GG) will kill me hahas....kk i miss her lah n if tmr nvr meet her i wont b seeing her 4 more then 1 week seh coz she goin hols on fri hais.....k lah lazy blog already bye guys......

WAH MISS HER SO MUCH.....REALLY HOPE CAN C HER TMR.....LOVE U GG!!!MUACKS :)

1st day of hols n i am dead bored already...morning wake up at 5.40 am n take my breakfast...aft breakfast wen to shower n get ready to go gym....my fwen then call me while i waiting 4 bus n say he cant makeit 4 gym so i wen to e gym alone hais...reach gym around 7.15....wen reach dere i c e familiar faces which i use to c b4 i enter poly...heheh...try to find my personal trainer but she wasnt dere 2day...so gym 4 abt until 9am then headed home....wen reach home ntg to do so play game n slp all e way hahahaha.....k lah will blog again...hols seem to hav a bad start hais.. :(



Syg miss u so much... :( I start to love u more n more everyday.... :) U really brighten up my life GG.... :) LOVE U ALWAYS MUACKS!!!

today was a tired day...eventhough my body is very tired i still wen to play soccer haha....wah so bored seh nw(time check 6.05pm)...cant sms or called my GG le....she wen bck to her jb hse...but lucky tmr she cm bck already.....but next week will miss her more coz she goin for holiday...
If not wrg she n her fam going to KL...sad seh but nvm lah atleast she can relax n enjoy herself hehehe......wah i hate rainy day...coz my knee will start to feel pain again...hais....wat wan to do nw seh...i tink play game again lor...k lah ntg to tok le...will blog again soon...


GG i miss u lah seh...GG I love u more n more everyday....Hug u tight tight k....MUUUAAACCCKKKSS!!! Hope to see u soon...... :)