Changing To Live Journal

to all hu have been reading my blog...i will b switching to live journoul instead....so just click e link My LiveJournal.....so long.....

it been so long since i blog....lets do sm updates on wat happen on 9 aug,10aug&12 aug ahahhaha.....9 aug was National Day.....so my family n i n my aunt n uncle cuzzy wen to padang to watch e fireworks..it was so nice especially e ending...aft fireworks all of us wen to sempang bedok to have our dinner hahahah.....n tis is sm of e pics...

10 aug.....i wen to puntian in malaysia to visit my grandaunt...it was a great trip coz i get to eat kampong fruits wohooo.......

n on 12 aug it is our final presentation...e every one was in formal cool or wat...eventhough our grp nvr do so well atleast we knw we did our best..n tis sm pic of our formal dress up class....

Fuck wat e hell happening to me...i was suppose to study 4 my java practical test but my mind donno go where...e tot of her suddenly appear in my mind....really miss her presence...hais...k lah will update again..ALL e best 0908...let get better marks then dat BITCH...

I am lost in my own world. i donno wat iam doing now.
my life sucks...me myself donno wat i wan nw......
can someone safe me frm tis kind of life...i reall hate
feeling tis way...i just like a bird trap in a cage... cant fly
to enjoy the open sky...or mayb i just a normal bird hu just
dont bothered to explore e sky...Which am i? i just donno hais... i hope my life will b bck to normal... i just need my fwenz n broz nw dats all...i wan my old
life bck.....then tis confusing life hais... :'(

Gloomy Sunday

Today i was not myself even my fam realise...but they nvr ask anyting...i was in the world off my own stonning away...tmr is my FTT n i dont really fell like takin it....hais...i still donno wat to do for my comskill...k till here gtg....

I am just like a bird.

Flying under e dark

sky trying to find the

ray of light...But wen

the ray is spoted it just seem to far

for me to fly towards the light.....

hello everyone..been bz tis few weeks so nvr update..hehehe....tuesday was great as after a tired day u finally can rest n enjoy a movie wif smone u love...wen to westmall to catch e movie obssesed wif her...:) eventhough i was damp tired 4 not slping 4 2 days i still enjoy e tyme spend wif her.....

Today was a great day...n guess wat smone got jealous wif me just bcoz i sat wif eli(my classmate) at lecture hahaah.....aft skul wen to eat wif amelia,gab nic n afew more ppl...then wen to lib n slack hahaha...watch movie wif amelia n eli at my laptop...at 3 left skul n headed to jurong wif eli n amelia...i wen to meet her while both eli n amelia headed home....wen to jurong lib n acompony her study awile...then wen to IMM to eat dinner n walk walk...aft dat send her bck home n i took a cab home coz e bus was damp late hahaahah...wah pract test cming on tis fri...die seh i donno java script hais..k til here...will update soon....


Our love is the bridge to happiness....Love u always Syg!!! :)

it been so long seen i updated......wah today was so tired as i been helping my aunt to do e preparation 4 my baby cuzzy 1month feast which is held on saturday...since fri i need to kitchen work such as peeling e potato,cutting e vegetable fried chickens n cook 20kg of beef...wah my hand was so tired dat i felt like detaching it frm my body...lol....n guest wat today i still need help them to packup can die seh.....wah tmr still got comskilled ica...sian....k till here...k let me show my baby cuzzy pic.......

The day finally came....

It finally came....she finally decided to end it again....it all happen yesterday nite...WTF why must it happen...tis might b a retribution to me 4 playing wif e heart off my past ex.....I just hate e feeling off losing u...can i survive??I damp feelin down.....y must she let me go wen she love me...does it make sense???she love me yet she let me go...

(My Inner Voice)
Khai wake up u r strong...u can continue ur live journey...dont turn bck khai....Khai it hard at first but u naturally will b ok k....U should let her go....dont hold her bck wen she doesnt wan stay any longer.....


Wen u say u love me..n I replied does it matter....I knw it hurt u...but deep down inside it does matter...ido still love u. i just wan to make u hate me so dat u will 4 get me easier....Wen i say u hurt me more tis way...It really damp hurting me but I say dat not to ask any symphaty frm u to not let me go but trying to make u wake up n see if u making e right choice....I have no choice i tink i will give u a cold shoulder for tyme being....it better 4 u n me to try let each other go.....


Shit i really miss n still loving u....I wan 2 hear ur voice but i knw i must b strong n move on.......

yes ah passed my basic theory... :) but so happy 4 wat?still long way to go seh to get my lisence...hehe...k lah ntg to update le....bye




Enjoy myself wif u today sayang....LOVE YOU!!! MUACKS!! :P

wah wat a bad day today...wen 4 soccer training eventhough i wasnt in e mood to play soccer...n guess wat aft 6month of not getting injured wen playing soccer i got injured while tackling smone..WTF seh...now my right leg damp pain lah but lucky enough it does not dilocate....i was limping all e way home lor....hopefully get better soon...wah tis right leg of mine always get injured seh....k lah i wan to go rest later at 6 plus wan to go out...will blog again soon.....



I MISS YOU!!!! :(

yesterday nite it happen again...she suddenly tok abt ending everting again....i knw she is just confuse as it really damp complicated....she love me yet she hav to leave me...i then took e courage to ask her if should walk out frm her life if she really wan it...even though deep down my heart i dont wan to loose her....i love her too much dat i just cant bare to loose her....she then say y dont i just 4get her n move on as she does not wan 2 hurt me more....i then ask her tis qn 4 e last tyme"Is dat wat u really wan?".....n she ans "Yes"....but i knw frm e tone of her voice dat was not she really wan but as i say she has no choice.....i den say gdbye n hang e phone....4 e whole nite i cant slp as i was stoning into space n tinking abt her...my heart hurt dat i drop my tears 4 her again...i also know dat she will not b slping e whole nite n will b crying e whole nite...7.16 am....a msg came in... she wish me farewell b4 she wen to KL 4 her hols....n true enough she cried e nite until even e tyme she text me....she told me she love me to much dat she cant bare to leave me....i then told her tis "i wont leave u if u nvr told me to do so..... as i love u so much...."i then tell her to enjoy her hols n i will wait 4 her call wen she bck....hais i need some advice here frm e ppl hu knw my current situation....wat should i do??I love her so much.....Oh god pls give me some guidance...

"Oh tuhan ,berilah aku kekuatan dan petunjuk untk menempuh hidup ini...Aku benar-benar cintakan dia yg bernama ....."

Syg i love u so much k..Pls dont ask me to leave u.....

wah 2day is my laziest day..... been slping whole day hahaha...n i not e kind of person hu slp whole day ...can buy 4-D ler...lol....wah i hav not been myself lately seh i also donno y.....tink too much already....donno y today flashbck abt my past...smtimes being a baby is e best as u dont hav to tink anyting...wen u wan anyting u just hav to cry n everyting is given to u.....but aft 18 yrs of living in tis world i hav learn alot of tings in lives....i hav face alot of down fall in lives until it landed me in lock up which nearly made me enter e boys home or even e prison but i was lucky enough dat my case is drop....n due to my foolishness i nearly get expel frm my school..u guys emagine 5 yrs in skul more then 10 case hahaha...but i am lucky to hav a bunch of good teachers to convince e principle not to expel us...especially my DM heheh...he so gd seh hahaha....k must stay out of trouble ler...hahaha....coz if i get into trouble smone (GG) will kill me hahas....kk i miss her lah n if tmr nvr meet her i wont b seeing her 4 more then 1 week seh coz she goin hols on fri hais.....k lah lazy blog already bye guys......

WAH MISS HER SO MUCH.....REALLY HOPE CAN C HER TMR.....LOVE U GG!!!MUACKS :)

1st day of hols n i am dead bored already...morning wake up at 5.40 am n take my breakfast...aft breakfast wen to shower n get ready to go gym....my fwen then call me while i waiting 4 bus n say he cant makeit 4 gym so i wen to e gym alone hais...reach gym around 7.15....wen reach dere i c e familiar faces which i use to c b4 i enter poly...heheh...try to find my personal trainer but she wasnt dere 2day...so gym 4 abt until 9am then headed home....wen reach home ntg to do so play game n slp all e way hahahaha.....k lah will blog again...hols seem to hav a bad start hais.. :(



Syg miss u so much... :( I start to love u more n more everyday.... :) U really brighten up my life GG.... :) LOVE U ALWAYS MUACKS!!!

today was a tired day...eventhough my body is very tired i still wen to play soccer haha....wah so bored seh nw(time check 6.05pm)...cant sms or called my GG le....she wen bck to her jb hse...but lucky tmr she cm bck already.....but next week will miss her more coz she goin for holiday...
If not wrg she n her fam going to KL...sad seh but nvm lah atleast she can relax n enjoy herself hehehe......wah i hate rainy day...coz my knee will start to feel pain again...hais....wat wan to do nw seh...i tink play game again lor...k lah ntg to tok le...will blog again soon...


GG i miss u lah seh...GG I love u more n more everyday....Hug u tight tight k....MUUUAAACCCKKKSS!!! Hope to see u soon...... :)

hi everyone...2day java test turn out to be not bad coz i hav e confident i can pass le haha...meet her awhile b4 she wen ssdc 4 her tp...giv her a gd luck charm b4 she go...at 1st i received a sms frm her saying she failed her test but end up she pass n got her licence haha....aft skul wen to yishun wif her n watch movie...i had great tyme wif her...hols cming but still will b quite bz wif projects n extra class...but it ok lah...atleast dont need wake up early...k lah till next tyme...



Congrats sayang 4 passing ur driving licence...btw thnks 4 2day...enjoy e day wif u...btw sayang love u so much k.... :)

Tis few days i hav been stonning into space i also donno y....i may seem happy...but am I??I also donno....hais....but wen i wif her it really make my mind at ease....i really need her...she giv me life...without her i will b feeling smting is missing n feeling so empty...she is just like e pulse in my body..without her i will be dead...the thought of loosing her can already kill me....hais tmr got test...i hope i can score 4 tis test hahaha...4 e 1st tyme i can understand a java topic .... :) k lah will blog again soon....


The thought of loosing u can already kill me....wat will happen to me if i really loose u.... :(

Hais 2day dont feel like blogging...so many ting happened...Should I tink abt it???I also donno...Y must tis b happening???I just hope 4 e best....Smtime i just feel like breaking down but i just cant....my mind is all over e place now...Wat should i do??Smone help me pls......My life is so complecated lah...can it b not so complecated hais....It make my life better dat way...but i cant keep on complaining coz smtimes wat ever happens have smting gd in returns....I just hope e gd returns is wat i really desire 4.....



i relly don knw wad to say anymore, i just knw this uh.. anytime when u wan me i will be dere fer u.. i knw ure confused now and cant relly think.. but i do knw that i am relly true to u, n if u were to give me a chance to prove it to u, i will promise u i will cherished u....

Sunday was a bad day 4 me lah as many tings happen...i felt dat i can break down anytime but i stay strong.....i was out e whole day wif my fam but my soal was not there as i was stoning to empty spaces most of e times....i had alot to ting in my mind...but end up decided to let destiny to handle my prob n worries...

Today was a so called not a bad day 4 me....wen to skul as normal then meet her awhile at 1o plus to have meal wif her n bck to skul...aft skul wen to play pool wif e normal ppl.....aft pool wen bck to skul acc nic n gabby to eat n then slack at lib wif her while waitin 4 her to finish studies....aft she finish we headed hm...n smting funny happen wen we otw 2 e mrt station hahahahha......k till nw wil update soon.....


I dont wan tink abt it.....i only wan to concentrate on fighting e war...i hope u wont giv up 2....luv u always GG..... :)

wah finally can relax abit as project had been handed in on fri....fri i had my track training while she wait 4 me at macd until i finish my trainin hehehe..so swt of her rite... : )...aft training i straight wen to shower meet her...n it quite late already as i need to acc her to yishun to buy her stuff.....we reach yishun at 8 plus n decide to leave aft buying e stuff but end up we slack at yishun n tok tok until nearly 10pm.....

my sat is quite tiring as it is my cuzzy wedding day....but i go there late hahah...reach there ard 4 plus wen e function actually start at 2 plus....hehehe...but lucky my mum nvr nag.....wah i miss her seh but lucky she got called me n we tok.....k lah been a long day...i will update again soon....


Syg thanks 4 everyting....really honoured to hav u 2 b part of my life now...love u always....c u soon k syg...miss u Xoxoxoxoxooxoxox......

yes ah finally finish my personel webpage.....2 day skull was damp short...1st period got bck my html test result n ms wong shake her head coz i failed but nvm lah can try harder on my next test......then got 2hr break b4 wen to class 4 java...wah 1st time seh u can c me really study n understand in java lesson hehehe....k lesson over n me,jamie,gab n e other wen to library to continue our html project...we all den leave library at 3pm...i plan to go hm but end up me n her wen to jurong point 2 walk walk n watch movie...heheheh......really enjoy e tyme wif her....shit ah tmr got test again hais..........

wah finally goin finish my personal profile....left to edit abit only...1 budern out of my head le....today i miss my track n field training coz still weak as haven really recover frm my fever....so i went SU meeting instead....then just nw manage 2 meet her awhile only....wah been so bz dat cant slack so much wif her sad seh.....shit ah fri still got test on logic...n i dont understand e topic lol....how????????Argh really need to work hard le....no more stoning in lecture so atleast can try to understand the topic being teach.......Miss u alot my swtest minah rep.......

haiya no mood to update lah...been bz wif project....n i am not feeling that well...been having headache on n offf...so will update soon k..........

Wah today a very tired day seh...wah i dono wat hapenning to me seh...during lunch i was damp no mood dat i eat n stoning all along....even most of my fwen ask y i so quiet not like usual....aft lunch all my fwen wen up to wait 4 e next class....that wen i make myself gone 4 awile...i actually wen koufu awile to meet her n chat 4 awile n wen bck to class...aft class me n afew grp of fwen wen to play pool 4 awile....aft pool i met Shalini as she want to bring me to report 4 my 1st track n field trainin...trainin was damp tiring...aft trainin me n wan of e guy frm track n field wen to the swimming pool to relax....we soak ourself 4 awile n then wen hm.......tmr still got soccer seh hahah...k will update soon.....I miss u so much my only 'sweetest minah rep'... :)

today was a long day...i had a test today n i tink i can oni just pass....aft skul i wen to meet her at YCK n wen to town wif her...we went to catch a movie at orchard cineleisure...b4 the movie we had lunch together...i really enjoy watchin movie wif her n we really had agreat tyme...aft e movie we went to esplanade for awile to tok n sitsit...we tok abt our prob n then wen hm...during journey hm e environment btwn us changes as there smting we had to concider....n i n her only knw hw complicated the matter is.....we voice out wat in our mind n decide on a final decision...then i reach my stop so i went down...i say gd bye to her n walk...she den sms me sayin."......."...i then reply her"....." n then she replied me bck"..."btw i really pray hard wat she replied to me will cm true....i really wan e day to cm...btw nic, gab n shawn paisey 4 ps u all today on our grp discussion coz goin out wif her....but dont worry i will do my part of the project.....btw tmr still got test hais......

tmr is my presentation again hais...skul is fun lah only many project....2day does nt do anyting much just go skul aft skul do project n aft project go to play pool wif nic n gabby....btw nic n gabby thnks 4 being my listhening ear k on u knw wat...btw nic thnks 4 e advice.....hais i miss her seh...... : (

been a very bz week in skul...last nite i was tokin to her on the phone frm 2am till 3am...it was fun toking to her as we joke ard...eventhough we just knw each other it feel like ages lol....aft dat slp at 4 plus n then wake up 6.45 am to get ready 4 skul....reach skul i had two test n it is java n computing maths....i knw i did quite well 4 java but i confirm flung my computer math paper......aft all the class ended me n my grp member wen to the lib to do our project n i was just not really in the mood donno y....aft the grp discussion i wen to meet her 4 awhile b4 goin to gym but end up nv go to gym as she say i look tired n she say y dont we lepak instead.....so i tell gabby we cancel our gym tyme...so nic n gabby decide to go pool but i past coz i was really damp tired....me n her slack awhile at mac b4 salini cm to meet us 4 awile....me n her then wen to Sun Plaza together to buy sm stuff 4 my new born baby cuzzy....we had a great tyme jokin ard n it 4 me n her to knw n 4 u guys out dere to find out...hahaha....i then walk her to the mrt station as i need to rush hm as i was late....btw i really like to thnks her 4 making my day a better ending......k gtg i will update again asap......

Class was damp fun...my classmate nvr failed to make me laugh...exspecially jamie,nick,beng n gabby.....the joke we make were so funny lol.....k till nw update soon....

Camp Glue

WoooHooo!!!!Camp Glue was a great fun....i dont regret going....i get to knw lot of ppl like Zeke,Sherly,Wilson,Clarence,Marcus n many more.....We have lot of fun together playing games n joking ard...Me n zeke n the boys of the BBC group was lebels as gay haaha....but we are all straight though....Eventhough we just got to knw we bonded just like glue hahah....Another thing dat i cant 4get abt the camp is wat happen to me n AhBeng on stage it really sick lol hahaha....If the video got uploaded i need wear mask to skul already hahahha......Guys do keep in touch k....enjoy the time wif u guys alot......



BBC POWER
WE BROTHER SISTER
LEPAK ONE CORNER
GIVE U 1 FLOWER
CHAP AT UR MUKE
BBC POWER!!!!

nearly 4 weeks of poly life has past...it been a wonderful tyme of my life so far as i had many great fwen such as jamie,nicholas,gabriel,shawn,amelia,victoria n many more....even though we just knw each others,it seem like we have knw each other for so long...we hav alot of fun jokin ard wif one another n espeacially disturb our classmate nandu hahahaha.....we knw its bad lah but we still do it anyway....i really apriciate to hav fwen like them....eventhough i enjoy poly life it abit stressful as there are projects i need to do...n now i hav like abt 4 project to do hais.....but no choice i still hav to do it...i really looking 4ward 4 upcomin days....(: