Live Life To The Fullest

yesterday nite it happen again...she suddenly tok abt ending everting again....i knw she is just confuse as it really damp complicated....she love me yet she hav to leave me...i then took e courage to ask her if should walk out frm her life if she really wan it...even though deep down my heart i dont wan to loose her....i love her too much dat i just cant bare to loose her....she then say y dont i just 4get her n move on as she does not wan 2 hurt me more....i then ask her tis qn 4 e last tyme"Is dat wat u really wan?".....n she ans "Yes"....but i knw frm e tone of her voice dat was not she really wan but as i say she has no choice.....i den say gdbye n hang e phone....4 e whole nite i cant slp as i was stoning into space n tinking abt her...my heart hurt dat i drop my tears 4 her again...i also know dat she will not b slping e whole nite n will b crying e whole nite...7.16 am....a msg came in... she wish me farewell b4 she wen to KL 4 her hols....n true enough she cried e nite until even e tyme she text me....she told me she love me to much dat she cant bare to leave me....i then told her tis "i wont leave u if u nvr told me to do so..... as i love u so much...."i then tell her to enjoy her hols n i will wait 4 her call wen she bck....hais i need some advice here frm e ppl hu knw my current situation....wat should i do??I love her so much.....Oh god pls give me some guidance...

"Oh tuhan ,berilah aku kekuatan dan petunjuk untk menempuh hidup ini...Aku benar-benar cintakan dia yg bernama ....."

Syg i love u so much k..Pls dont ask me to leave u.....