The day finally came....

It finally came....she finally decided to end it again....it all happen yesterday nite...WTF why must it happen...tis might b a retribution to me 4 playing wif e heart off my past ex.....I just hate e feeling off losing u...can i survive??I damp feelin down.....y must she let me go wen she love me...does it make sense???she love me yet she let me go...

(My Inner Voice)
Khai wake up u r strong...u can continue ur live journey...dont turn bck khai....Khai it hard at first but u naturally will b ok k....U should let her go....dont hold her bck wen she doesnt wan stay any longer.....


Wen u say u love me..n I replied does it matter....I knw it hurt u...but deep down inside it does matter...ido still love u. i just wan to make u hate me so dat u will 4 get me easier....Wen i say u hurt me more tis way...It really damp hurting me but I say dat not to ask any symphaty frm u to not let me go but trying to make u wake up n see if u making e right choice....I have no choice i tink i will give u a cold shoulder for tyme being....it better 4 u n me to try let each other go.....


Shit i really miss n still loving u....I wan 2 hear ur voice but i knw i must b strong n move on.......

yes ah passed my basic theory... :) but so happy 4 wat?still long way to go seh to get my lisence...hehe...k lah ntg to update le....bye




Enjoy myself wif u today sayang....LOVE YOU!!! MUACKS!! :P

wah wat a bad day today...wen 4 soccer training eventhough i wasnt in e mood to play soccer...n guess wat aft 6month of not getting injured wen playing soccer i got injured while tackling smone..WTF seh...now my right leg damp pain lah but lucky enough it does not dilocate....i was limping all e way home lor....hopefully get better soon...wah tis right leg of mine always get injured seh....k lah i wan to go rest later at 6 plus wan to go out...will blog again soon.....



I MISS YOU!!!! :(

yesterday nite it happen again...she suddenly tok abt ending everting again....i knw she is just confuse as it really damp complicated....she love me yet she hav to leave me...i then took e courage to ask her if should walk out frm her life if she really wan it...even though deep down my heart i dont wan to loose her....i love her too much dat i just cant bare to loose her....she then say y dont i just 4get her n move on as she does not wan 2 hurt me more....i then ask her tis qn 4 e last tyme"Is dat wat u really wan?".....n she ans "Yes"....but i knw frm e tone of her voice dat was not she really wan but as i say she has no choice.....i den say gdbye n hang e phone....4 e whole nite i cant slp as i was stoning into space n tinking abt her...my heart hurt dat i drop my tears 4 her again...i also know dat she will not b slping e whole nite n will b crying e whole nite...7.16 am....a msg came in... she wish me farewell b4 she wen to KL 4 her hols....n true enough she cried e nite until even e tyme she text me....she told me she love me to much dat she cant bare to leave me....i then told her tis "i wont leave u if u nvr told me to do so..... as i love u so much...."i then tell her to enjoy her hols n i will wait 4 her call wen she bck....hais i need some advice here frm e ppl hu knw my current situation....wat should i do??I love her so much.....Oh god pls give me some guidance...

"Oh tuhan ,berilah aku kekuatan dan petunjuk untk menempuh hidup ini...Aku benar-benar cintakan dia yg bernama ....."

Syg i love u so much k..Pls dont ask me to leave u.....

wah 2day is my laziest day..... been slping whole day hahaha...n i not e kind of person hu slp whole day ...can buy 4-D ler...lol....wah i hav not been myself lately seh i also donno y.....tink too much already....donno y today flashbck abt my past...smtimes being a baby is e best as u dont hav to tink anyting...wen u wan anyting u just hav to cry n everyting is given to u.....but aft 18 yrs of living in tis world i hav learn alot of tings in lives....i hav face alot of down fall in lives until it landed me in lock up which nearly made me enter e boys home or even e prison but i was lucky enough dat my case is drop....n due to my foolishness i nearly get expel frm my school..u guys emagine 5 yrs in skul more then 10 case hahaha...but i am lucky to hav a bunch of good teachers to convince e principle not to expel us...especially my DM heheh...he so gd seh hahaha....k must stay out of trouble ler...hahaha....coz if i get into trouble smone (GG) will kill me hahas....kk i miss her lah n if tmr nvr meet her i wont b seeing her 4 more then 1 week seh coz she goin hols on fri hais.....k lah lazy blog already bye guys......

WAH MISS HER SO MUCH.....REALLY HOPE CAN C HER TMR.....LOVE U GG!!!MUACKS :)

1st day of hols n i am dead bored already...morning wake up at 5.40 am n take my breakfast...aft breakfast wen to shower n get ready to go gym....my fwen then call me while i waiting 4 bus n say he cant makeit 4 gym so i wen to e gym alone hais...reach gym around 7.15....wen reach dere i c e familiar faces which i use to c b4 i enter poly...heheh...try to find my personal trainer but she wasnt dere 2day...so gym 4 abt until 9am then headed home....wen reach home ntg to do so play game n slp all e way hahahaha.....k lah will blog again...hols seem to hav a bad start hais.. :(



Syg miss u so much... :( I start to love u more n more everyday.... :) U really brighten up my life GG.... :) LOVE U ALWAYS MUACKS!!!

today was a tired day...eventhough my body is very tired i still wen to play soccer haha....wah so bored seh nw(time check 6.05pm)...cant sms or called my GG le....she wen bck to her jb hse...but lucky tmr she cm bck already.....but next week will miss her more coz she goin for holiday...
If not wrg she n her fam going to KL...sad seh but nvm lah atleast she can relax n enjoy herself hehehe......wah i hate rainy day...coz my knee will start to feel pain again...hais....wat wan to do nw seh...i tink play game again lor...k lah ntg to tok le...will blog again soon...


GG i miss u lah seh...GG I love u more n more everyday....Hug u tight tight k....MUUUAAACCCKKKSS!!! Hope to see u soon...... :)

hi everyone...2day java test turn out to be not bad coz i hav e confident i can pass le haha...meet her awhile b4 she wen ssdc 4 her tp...giv her a gd luck charm b4 she go...at 1st i received a sms frm her saying she failed her test but end up she pass n got her licence haha....aft skul wen to yishun wif her n watch movie...i had great tyme wif her...hols cming but still will b quite bz wif projects n extra class...but it ok lah...atleast dont need wake up early...k lah till next tyme...



Congrats sayang 4 passing ur driving licence...btw thnks 4 2day...enjoy e day wif u...btw sayang love u so much k.... :)

Tis few days i hav been stonning into space i also donno y....i may seem happy...but am I??I also donno....hais....but wen i wif her it really make my mind at ease....i really need her...she giv me life...without her i will b feeling smting is missing n feeling so empty...she is just like e pulse in my body..without her i will be dead...the thought of loosing her can already kill me....hais tmr got test...i hope i can score 4 tis test hahaha...4 e 1st tyme i can understand a java topic .... :) k lah will blog again soon....


The thought of loosing u can already kill me....wat will happen to me if i really loose u.... :(

Hais 2day dont feel like blogging...so many ting happened...Should I tink abt it???I also donno...Y must tis b happening???I just hope 4 e best....Smtime i just feel like breaking down but i just cant....my mind is all over e place now...Wat should i do??Smone help me pls......My life is so complecated lah...can it b not so complecated hais....It make my life better dat way...but i cant keep on complaining coz smtimes wat ever happens have smting gd in returns....I just hope e gd returns is wat i really desire 4.....



i relly don knw wad to say anymore, i just knw this uh.. anytime when u wan me i will be dere fer u.. i knw ure confused now and cant relly think.. but i do knw that i am relly true to u, n if u were to give me a chance to prove it to u, i will promise u i will cherished u....

Sunday was a bad day 4 me lah as many tings happen...i felt dat i can break down anytime but i stay strong.....i was out e whole day wif my fam but my soal was not there as i was stoning to empty spaces most of e times....i had alot to ting in my mind...but end up decided to let destiny to handle my prob n worries...

Today was a so called not a bad day 4 me....wen to skul as normal then meet her awhile at 1o plus to have meal wif her n bck to skul...aft skul wen to play pool wif e normal ppl.....aft pool wen bck to skul acc nic n gabby to eat n then slack at lib wif her while waitin 4 her to finish studies....aft she finish we headed hm...n smting funny happen wen we otw 2 e mrt station hahahahha......k till nw wil update soon.....


I dont wan tink abt it.....i only wan to concentrate on fighting e war...i hope u wont giv up 2....luv u always GG..... :)

wah finally can relax abit as project had been handed in on fri....fri i had my track training while she wait 4 me at macd until i finish my trainin hehehe..so swt of her rite... : )...aft training i straight wen to shower meet her...n it quite late already as i need to acc her to yishun to buy her stuff.....we reach yishun at 8 plus n decide to leave aft buying e stuff but end up we slack at yishun n tok tok until nearly 10pm.....

my sat is quite tiring as it is my cuzzy wedding day....but i go there late hahah...reach there ard 4 plus wen e function actually start at 2 plus....hehehe...but lucky my mum nvr nag.....wah i miss her seh but lucky she got called me n we tok.....k lah been a long day...i will update again soon....


Syg thanks 4 everyting....really honoured to hav u 2 b part of my life now...love u always....c u soon k syg...miss u Xoxoxoxoxooxoxox......

yes ah finally finish my personel webpage.....2 day skull was damp short...1st period got bck my html test result n ms wong shake her head coz i failed but nvm lah can try harder on my next test......then got 2hr break b4 wen to class 4 java...wah 1st time seh u can c me really study n understand in java lesson hehehe....k lesson over n me,jamie,gab n e other wen to library to continue our html project...we all den leave library at 3pm...i plan to go hm but end up me n her wen to jurong point 2 walk walk n watch movie...heheheh......really enjoy e tyme wif her....shit ah tmr got test again hais..........

wah finally goin finish my personal profile....left to edit abit only...1 budern out of my head le....today i miss my track n field training coz still weak as haven really recover frm my fever....so i went SU meeting instead....then just nw manage 2 meet her awhile only....wah been so bz dat cant slack so much wif her sad seh.....shit ah fri still got test on logic...n i dont understand e topic lol....how????????Argh really need to work hard le....no more stoning in lecture so atleast can try to understand the topic being teach.......Miss u alot my swtest minah rep.......

haiya no mood to update lah...been bz wif project....n i am not feeling that well...been having headache on n offf...so will update soon k..........